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[jane. janus opens their mouth to correct the harpy, and then closes it again, thinking, it's a nickname, right? their first? they do not object. it seems like a nice nickname.]

No, [they say, straightening slightly.] Not to 'get it over with.' Just to... experience it without... trying to push my expectations on it. I don't know. I over-prepare for a lot of things in my life. I thought I would just try to show up and enjoy myself with that. [they tap their fingers on their knee a moment, lips pursing primly.]

It was nice. [very nice.] Don't criticize me about it, you would have done the same.

[ Jay went from relaxed to tense in a split second. He sat up higher, much like how Janus had straightened, though Jay's chest rose in an instinctive act to appear larger. Nature's way of appearing tough while he got on the defensive. ]

Whaddaya mean I would've done the same!? I get fokked 'cause it feels good 'n my first time was... uh. [ How could he describe his first time? ] Kind've a surprise? I dunno. I mean, we're not the same so you can't just say I woulda done the same! [ He hated it when people thought they had him figured out, and he wasn't about to let someone with his face get away with it either. ]

It's great it went nice, I guess. What was it, one-night stand? Some random guy from town? They didn't do much other than stick it in 'n hump 'n that's why you wanna know more?

Fine. [janus waves their hands around, in a brief and uncharacteristic moment of warrgrbl!] Well you can read books about it and ask other people what to do before you have sex next time, [they respond.] I'm just asking you about it now for my own personal reasons, which you can question all you want.

[janus hates being new at things. if they could be an expert immediately and impress everyone on the first try, they would absolutely do so. murder, sex, history quizzes, that would be their preference— to be an old hand all the time. but it's not an option, so they settle back in with their notepad.] No I will probably see him again. And there's someone else I want to do it with, I mean, he wants to do it with me so... [they start to turn pink at their ears.]

I prefer to go out on dates. And treat them well and be treated well. That seems like the right way to do it.

[there should be a manual.]

I can't read, ya dof! [ He huffed as if Janus was supposed to know that. First the daemon acts like they know shit about him, but then they so clearly don't it's frustrating. But Jay was willing to settle down for the sake of talking about sex, the one topic where he felt relatively confident. ]

Yeah, I guess that's the right way for you, but it not everybody does that. Sometimes they just wanna go right to bed 'n that's not bad if ya want it, y'know? If you're horny for him. How'd ya take it? On your back? Doggy?

[ He didn't even blink when Janus mentioned multiple people, that was very normal for Jay. Then again that pink made him start to grin. ] Hey, hey Jane... does it get ya all worked up knowin' sumone wants to fokk ya?

[janus sniffs at the other boy, rather prissily.] There are audiobooks, [they point out, pointlessly.] And videos. [they were actually thinking about watching videos. no lie.] And you could still ask people. [they huff as well. they don't like being made fun of, least of all about their ability and decision to learn about certain things. (they had admittedly been insecure about trying to have sex without researching it more extensively.) (it's a sore spot.)

(but one that begins to subside when jay asks them intrusive questions.)] What-- oh. [janus turns pink around the edges and busies themself looking at their notebook.] Well that's how it works. Mutual attraction is important. I mean not always, but-- hopefully. It's nice. Nobody has ever looked at me that way before I came here. [a beat. they calm down slightly.]

I am serious about audiobooks. I can get you some.

Yeah yeah yeah! [ He huffed a bit as well, waving his hand as if that wasn't the important subject that they should be discussing right now. ] You're not answering my questions, how m'I supposed to help ya if ya keep avoidin' the questions?

[ That's what they were there for, right? Advice? It's funny how they were supposed to be him somehow, they definitely looked like it, but they were so different. Jay squinted as he leaned over, trying to read what was in the notebook. ] S'weird, people always looked at me that way. Y'know, hungry? Like they wanted to get their teeth into me. It wasn't until I came here that people actually gave a damn 'bout me too.

What do I need the books for anyway? I got several baes now, m'doin' good, I think.

[janus starts turning fiercely pink. they can't think of any more deflecting questions so they poke their pen down at their page, only the nib isn't out so they aren't making scribbles or anything.] 'Baes' aren't everything, [they say to entirely the wrong audience.] You could want more. You don't have to, but you could.

[they think about it sometimes. being married and quiet somewhere. waiting for the knock on the door. there's something worshipful and creepily about being a hunter anyway, of being overly obsessed with the mission. sometimes janus thinks about-- what if that mission were a person. but they don't know how to talk about it.] I was on my back mostly. They like looking at my face. I don't know.

Sometimes I think, there is one of them who would prefer if I were more umm. Proactive. [janus jabs their book harder.] I would scare them from thinking to eat me.

'course they are. What else is there that's worth it? [ Sometimes Janus said the oddest shit. ]

That's funny. People always told me my arse was my best feature, but he liked to look at your face, huh? Ya think he likes you? Y'know, like-likes you? [ Because that's Jay's logic right there, if someone wants to screw you missionary then there must be something more there. ]

Uhh, proactive? Does that mean he wants you to top him or somethin'? Who are these fokkers anyway? [ He supposed he didn't really need to know that, but color him curious. ]

[janus stops jabbing their notebook with their pen once they realize that's what they're doing, clearing their throat slightly, self-conscious, despite that their current audience is not very likely to take exception to little fidgets. they aren't used to being new at anything. sixteen years old, and janus thinks they're supposed to know it all already.

but clearly in this domain, jay is more knowledgeable. janus glances at his face quickly, then down at the paper again.] I have a calling, [they tell him.] I'd give them up-- I'd give up being with them, if it meant protecting you or them. Or anyone at this school. [hunter rules. it's easy to talk about; janus has been telling themself this their whole life. less easy to talk about: sexual conquests!! hrrrngh hmmm hmf. they clear their throat.]

I could try to top someone I-- think. [do you have instructions, they want to ask.] There are two of them. I'm not sure I should name names in case it would be embarrassing for them. I'm still not very good at it.

[;;;;]

But I think they like me, yes. Two of them so far.

[ Due to the fact that Jay was a bit of a fidgeter himself, he didn't really noticed Janus murdering their notebook. Or maybe it was because the subject matter was the type of thing he found interesting, so all his focus was there instead of on the world around him.

His nose scrunched when they said they'd give up their baes for 'their calling'. ]

What's so good about your callin', anyway? Love's worth a whole lot more than killin' people, innit? [ Jay may call himself a fighter, but he was obviously a lover at heart. ] I don't want you to give up someone you love for me. [ Then again, if they didn't that would mean they both would die wouldn't it? Hmm. Jay found himself shifting uncomfortably on the bed momentarily. FOCUS. ON. SEX. ]

Two of 'em, huh? That's alright. [ Which was shorthand for: I'm proud of you! ] If ya need topping practice you could prob'ly try it out on me. Uh, wait, would that be too weird? [ Jay didn't have a twin so he didn't think about the 'weirdness' at first, but now that he thought about it... ] Maybe one of my baes then? Like Ty, or Rem...

[if janus sits up any straighter they're going to crack their spine. if they turn any redder they'll permanently ruin their pallor probably. they're also going to tear a dimension into a new world with their pen and notebook. this is so embarrassing. so embarrassing that it's quite difficult for janus to be their normal tart, logical self when it comes to addressing some of jay's other questions.]

I know this may sound very strange, but I would rather be on top for the first time with someone I like a lot. Then practice with other people. I know that doesn't seem very consistent, but um, I think the first time can be special. Sometimes. Maybe. [there's an odd, twisting sort of silence, very brief. janus looks at the interesting pile of garbage in the corner. (it's not that interesting, they don't like garbage.)]

Sometimes violent people won't stop because of love or anything else. I don't want you to lose someone you love because I failed my calling. Not Rem, or Ty, or any of them.

Nah, that makes sense. [ It was an understanding thing to say but he was frowning a little to himself, likely because he realized just how unspecial his first time was. Without thinking he held onto the index finger on his opposite hand and twisted hard enough that it hurt, but he didn't make any noise- he just let it go and breathed out. ]

Well um, if you're the same size as me 'n I think whoever you're with might like it more if you take 'em doggy. But if you like 'em a lot maybe you should do it face-to-face like they did with you. If they're not too heavy they could ride your lap, that's always nice.

[ He didn't notice the way Janus' eyes were wandering because his eyes were doing the same thing- same habit, different reasons. ] Rem 'n Ty are immortal. [ Which wasn't the point, but. ]

They can still be killed, [janus says, firmly.] Most anyone can be killed, and I won't have it if I can help it.

[rather gory and grim perspective on life and love and everything, but by now, most people don't expect much different.

but then they look back down and press pen to paper. write that down. 'doggy style.' by now, they know what that means. they purse their lips slightly, feeling their ears starting to heat up again. 'ride on my lap,' in politely formed letters underneath it. subpoint: 'if not too heavy.' ezekiel would be too heavy.]

Ummm, [they clear their throat.] Any other advice?

[ His nose wrinkled and his lips twitched as if he wanted to counter 'no they can't!!!' but he swallowed it back. Jay didn't have the best impulse-control in the world, but sometimes he could manage it. ]

Um, there's this thing they got. A plug? It can go in your butt. It's nice to wear when you're givin' it to other people. I dunno, [ he rubbed his arm in a nervous, idle gesture. ] I just like feelin' somethin' up there no matter what I'm doin' with someone. Keeps me harder, makes it feel better when I cum.

'n if you can get both of 'em at once, let 'em both try to stick it up ya, you know, both of their dicks up your arse. That's my favorite. Might be yours too if ya try it. Uh... I guess that's it 'less you got some more questions.

[suppose the earth opens up and swallows janus whole. that's how it feels right now. but they just keep writing! diligently noting some object can be inserted in the rectum (to purchase) and two penises may be utilized at once-- it sounds painful, but when they risk a glance at jay's face, it's clear he isn't joking around, so...

so...]

I don't have any more questions, [they say, closing their pen with a smart click.] Thank you, that was very helpful. I don't know if I'll get to it anytime soon, but it's good to know. I don't have-- um, that many people to talk to about these things.

Yeah, well, who better 'n me? I got your body 'n I'm a complete slut.

[ He shrugged carelessly, now used to Janus' apparent discomfort which he couldn't seem to do anything about- not that he was really trying anyway. After all, it was they who wanted to have this conversation in the first place! ]

Anytime, Jane.

Mythr

jay almost had this conversation with the xist mod account

thats ok, drake nearly got porn from the orientmods

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